Excitement versus Restlessness

There's a small cafe around my university compound which belongs to my faculty. Among my friends, we used to criticize the cafe and thought it can be better. We always throw out ideas randomly, on how to improve the cafe. Recently, we found out that the cafe is closed due to lack of manpower. Suddenly, we came out with the idea of running the cafe, voluntarily. I guess deep down inside, we had already imagined doing it.

Previously, the cafe was run by students as their practical. No rental needed and budgets are given. Where to get such great deal? The only weakness is that we can't really change how it looks because it doesn't belong to us. We can only come out with excellent concept and great marketing strategy to sell our excellent concept.

When we first came out with the idea of taking over the cafe, I wasn't so sure if i want to do it. After all, it is a huge responsibility, not a game that you can quit easily. Darling suggested that we should see prof and get some information on the cafe. I wasn't so sure about the idea but we met prof yesterday and talked to her. Somehow she gave me strength to do it. Maybe because of her trust on us. I was all energized up after meeting her. Then we met May, the girl who run the cafe previously. She gave us some details on the cafe and even gave me her file. From that very moment, I felt like the responsibility belongs to us already. I can't help thinking about plans on improving and running the cafe. So many things came up and without knowing it, I am restless now. Ideas keep coming and I need to keep jotting down before it goes away. Recipes, concepts, management stuff, marketing stuff, decor stuff... I'm restless but I feel content.

My parents are not so sure whether it's a good idea because they're worried that I can't cope with my studies. I have faith on myself and my partners. We can definitely do it because we are the best and always will be. Darling, now I am sure that I really want to do it. I hardly have this feeling, a feeling of wanting something so bad that I'll doing everything to get it. My friends who are reading this, please give us support because we really need it. Pray for us as well...

The End

Sorry Darling, I know I said I'll sleep. After all the loud quarreling, I just couldn't sleep, yet.

15 minutes ago, there was one couple quarreling next door. They really scared me as I am staying at home alone tonight. Initially I thought they were just playing as the girl refuse to let the guy in. Then when they started to raise their voice, I knew it wasn't playing. Apparently they just broke up as the guy wants to get his stuff back from the girl's house. They ended up fighting, the guy slapped the girl and the girl started to cry, loudly. Luckily somebody inside the house came out and opened the door.

Why most relationship must end this way, an ugly ending. In their case, seems like the girl cheated. I still don't understand how it can happen this way. If you dislike somebody, why get together at the first place and cheat later. Call me naive. You may say things are not as simple as I thought it was. But I thought it was plain desperation. When you love somebody fully with your heart, you won't find an extra space in your heart to put somebody else. In fact you won't be able to see anybody else. I just don't understand.

To My Dearest Love

My Love

Without you I will be nobody
Minding my own business
Without you I will be a rock
No tears, no laughter
Without you I will be lost
Not having strength or courage
Without you I will be living in emptiness
No sunshine, no purpose

With you my days are colourful
You are my clown that gives me laughter
With you my days are warm
You are my sunshine that gives me warmth
With you my days are purposeful
It is to love you every minute every second
Darling, promise me that you will be there for me till the end of time
I need you so much, more than anybody could imagine
You give me strength
You give me warmth
You give me sunshine
You give me laughter
Most important
You give me LOVE

I love you my darling
Forever

Tourism Conference 2008

Joyful Day

I attended the Tourism Conference 2008 two days ago. Despite all the incompetencies and inconsistencies that I had to bear with, I was happy. I was very satisfied with the outcome, an unexpected outcome.

I can still remember what had happened few months back after I presented my final draft to my lecturers and friends. I cried; cried because I wasn't satisfied with my own presentation and eventually thought it was lousy. I was totally disappointed with myself at the moment. I was sad.

The Tourism Conference 2008 gave me a second chance to prove that I can do better. I re-plan my presentation strategy and came out with a new slide show. I read through my booklet as if it's a story book to refresh my memory about Kuala Kangsar. I decided not to plan anything detail as I thought doing it spontaneously might help to produce a smoother story telling way.

On the conference day, I woke up early, packed along with my confidence and traveled to the conference place - UNITAR City Campus. When I first stepped into the hall, I saw my book in the ice. I was feeling proud at that moment but didn't dare to show how proud I was. I was afraid that others might think I was trying to show off or something like that. During the morning session, I enjoyed the presentations about Japan and Pulau Gaya; enjoyed the way Sir Abu Musa made fun of others. Haha!! Then, lunch was kind of rushing because Darling and I have to get back to the campus fast, we were the second presenters. Too bad we were presenting concurrently, I can't witness Darling's magic in his presentation. Everyone was complimenting his presentation. Hmm...

As for myself, the first thing I did when I entered the room was apologized because I was late. Ms Haliza had to present first because I was late. I bet I was looking clumsy because I rushed. Pn Munira went second, doing introduction for Kuala Kangsar and did a great introduction for me. She basically put everyone's attention on me. For one second, I was scared. I took a deep breath and went out. Despite the clumsy look, I thought I did quite well. Sir Abu Musa looked very satisfied with my presentation. He complimented me once I got back to my seat next to him. I was happy with myself and one second I felt proud; proud that I finally did a great job that didn't disappoint myself and others.

After the whole presentation session, when we thought it was the end, Prof came in with a stack of booklets. We were overjoyed!! Those booklets are our hard work and we are getting our own copy of the booklets. Again, I felt proud to be in the research team. Suddenly the whole experience become so very precious to me. Smile is hanging on everyone's face; lecturers and students. I thought we did a great job. I was proud of everybody, those who presented and those who made the posters.

After the closing ceremony, I finally got the courage to do something that I've never done before. I thanked my lecturers; I thanked Pn Munira for advising me; thanked Sir Abu Musa for editing my booklet; thanked Prof for advising and editing; thanked Ms Rohaizah for advising too. My courage had brought me surprises. Sir Abu Musa told me that if he was to rate, my booklet will be the best because he loves my booklet the most; second will be Darling's book. I was proud of us both that moment. Then I found out that Sir Abu Musa and Ms Haliza were the two who chosen my book to be place in the ice for the opening ceremony. Again, I was proud. Prof told me how she wanted to see my presentation but couldn't because she was in the other concurrent session. I was overjoyed when I heard that. Darling, I know you've been telling me how Prof likes my work. Now I know. Then Ms Rohaizah said to me "you deserved that, you did a good job". I thought I can fly with all the words I got from my advisers. I was really overjoyed. Lucky that I can still control myself, or else I'll be jumping around.

Before leaving, we took tons of photos; formal and crazy photos. Prof even warned us not to do something funny on her. Haha!! Cute Prof.